September 3 – Food Log
Exercise: [none so far...]
0-5 (8:15a)
Bowl of cereal & milk; Coffee w/creamer & Splenda
Was seriously hungry when I went to bed, so no doubt about “0″ even though I didn’t feel it in the same way as I do throughout the day. What’s up with that?!? We’ll see how long a single bowl of cereal holds me…
1-4 (9:15a)
Additional cup of coffee w/creamer & Splenda
Wasn’t hungry – desired the caffeine. Probably something I should start to wheedle down, or wait until I get to my MILs to work to have a breakfast bar. We’ll see…
0-7 (12:30p)
Tomato sandwich on toasted white, 2 oreos, mini-babybel soft cheese; several bites off J5’s plate (ugh) hot dog & ranch; Wild Cherry diet Pepsi
Ugh, ugh, ugh. Sandwich and cheese were good. Oreos were fine. Bites of hot dot were automatic and stupid. Especially since they were AFTER my little cookie dessert! The Pepsi is throwing me from 5 to 7 with all the carbonation. I don’t like the way it feels physically nor emotionally. Where do you go from being thrilled with a day of obedience to the first stumble and self-loathing that follows? Ugh. Ugh. Ugh.
1-7/8 (6:45p)
Meatloaf, scalloped potatoes, spinach salad w/avocado & ranch
I still really don’t know my 5-10 hunger measurements. I was fuller than a 5 after dinner. I took an oreo with the intent of having it as my dessert, but then my reminder went off for my 60-60 time and it was enough. 
I threw the cookie out. I knew it would ruin my peace. I’m tired of doing that.
Christina is discussing. 
Christina 3:55 pm on September 3, 2008 Permalink |
“Where do you go from being thrilled with a day of obedience to the first stumble and self-loathing that follows?”
Straight to God! He loves you and forgives you and has open arms. Keep focussing on observing (confessing) and correcting (repenting) rather then beating yourself up. Remember you’re a LEARNER not a FAILURE!
I have to say that each and every time I (or anyone else) eats 0-5 is such a victory! As a quote from the TW book said, “Never consider a SINGLE defeat a FINAL defeat!” As you have opened yourself up to being transparent about your eating I can already see that you have experienced many victory steps! Another quote that stuck out to me recently that you may find encouraging is: “I can’t…but God, You can!” So, keep pressing on! You can do it in God’s strength!