Sweet Child of His

Oh this was a hard one. I wanted to eat and eat and eat throughout the evening. Lots of prayer, lots of mental struggle, finally a request that God show me what I was trying to stuff down. Brought a couple of stresses to light. Have yet to determine what steps God wants me to take in order to deal with the stuff that’s stressing me, but at least I let myself feel it for a bit.

I’m not sure what good allowing stress feelings to linger will do, but one step at a time. I know He’s with me, and I know He’s gonna finish this thing He started.

One correction, as much as I don’t want to say this, is to not have any distractions while I’m working in the evening. I usually like to have something on my second monitor – music, streaming TV, SOMETHING, to keep me from feeling alone as I work. The bad thing is that it triggers my desire to eat. Not sure why. I guess if I remove the food and remove the white noise, I’ll be left with me, my work, and perhaps a more clear view of what has been stressing me and triggering this massive stuffing mentality.