There are very few things that really grab and hold my attention, but hearing from God is one of them.

I’m not crazy – no audible voices or anything.  Just had God ask me in the middle of the night last night:

Can you give up food for me?

It wasn’t about giving up food in a fasting, no-longer-eating kind of way.  It was in letting go of the  “boy-I-have-to-have-that-now-even-though-I’m-not-hungry” sort of way.

I said “Yes.”

Then I said, “No.”

Then I said, “Not on my own.  You’re gonna have to help me on this one.”

And here I sit.  Facing my worst time.  Evening.  Sitting at the computer, or sitting in front of the TV.  Either way, bad, bad mojo.    It’s going to take God to get me broken of this “fat machinery”.  Funny how I have known that term for a really long time and all the sudden bells and whistles of understanding are going off.

“Fat machinery is unconscious, automatic, or inappropriate eating that is activated by external or internal stimuli.  What this means is that much of our eating is done for the wrong reasons – social pressure, anxiety, frustration, and a variety of emotional stimuli that have nothing to do with our body’s need for nourishment….Our eating is activated by these stimuli and we move through life like robots or automatons, reaching for food unconsciously when something or someone activates our ‘eat’ button.”

Get Thin, Stay Thin – pp 80-81

I’m giving this another try.  It’s very interesting to me how so many things are related.  My Leadership Summit experience.  The GTST book.  My prayers.  Answers to those prayers.  It’s very exciting to me when God gives me the teeniest peek at the order behind the chaos.  Hope to see more of that “order”, but learning to live like I know it’s always there…