Clearing my head

I just need to write. I had to do this clean slate because I don’t want to go off onto a weird tangent in a place where people know me. I know that’s pretty lame. I should be able to blog about my life in my own way, right? But that’s not what I’m like.

I’ve lost my writing. My blog is a lame place to go. I haven’t posted about anything real in a long time. I hope to go back, especially since I have this really nice neat place that was designed especially for me. But now it’s too pretty. I don’t want to mar it with my struggles with my weight. I don’t want to live on the weight loss blog places because I get encouraging comments about other peoples magic formulas.

What it comes down to is I just want God. I want to “get” what this struggle is about. I want to write about it. And so here I am in a place where “nobody knows your name”. I am

I overeat. I am ashamed. I want to change. I know it’s sinful because I specifically remembered a verse last night as I headed down for another session of overeating. The verse says roughly, “If you know what you’re doing is wrong, it’s a sin.”

I am a slave to food and I need help. I believe that the methodology of TW is correct. I need to follow.

Weight this AM: 207 lbs.